Heart break and questions

It has been a week of heartbreak, questions answered, and questions posed.
We have decided to release Spencer and hope..
Hope we made te right decision for him and for us.
We have alot going on right now in our lives as a family, some of which will make it difficult to travel to Spencer country to get him.
Fundraising has been very difficult,almost impossible and by releasing Spencer now we hope he will have his grant grow by going on the angel tree for another year.
This blog will change the way it looks to reflect that we now will not be Spencers family, two little boys we have loved from afar.. that we will never hold never tuck into bed.
One has found his forever family, the other we pray Lord will watch over and he will send his forever family.
We are still very much want to adopt but we will wait until the Lord points us into the direction we should go.
But if we are not to adopt we will enjoy our life as it is now and wait for the birth of our grandaughter in Feb.2012

5 generations.. and adding

My family is blessed in many ways, one way that is special is we still have 5 generations living. My grandmother, Mary, is 101 years old, unfortunatly my father has passed away, but my aunt is still alive. Then there is my generation and then my kids. I have several cousins who have made her a great great grandma. But my oldest daughter is going to be adding to that. Lauren is pregnant with our first grandchild(a girl that will be named Bethany), and is due in February that will make my granddaughter another great great grand for my grandmother Mary.
When we bring Elijah home he will be the youngest of our children. He will also either be an uncle or very close to becoming one depending on when we can get him home! An uncle at 5.. he will have alot of people to love!

PRAYER and the ransom

Prayer is amazing. I was started to get discouraged with the lack of funds for our adoption. I have been praying and I know others have been also, Thank you!
I have been open about the adoption but not about the lack of funds, that is changing. WE need help. Spencer is now 5 years old! Thats nothing big in our society in his country that means he is now at the age where they transfer him to a mental instution where if not adopted he spedns the rest of his life! Not something I want to happen!
Spencer is my son, not legally yet but very much emotionally! If some one take your child you do what ever is in your power o get thim back including paying his ransom. This is what we have to do!
Please if you can help us pay his ransom, every little bit helps.

Homestudy update..check

We moved and have had our homestudy update complete, now we are waiting to get it back from our social worker so we can send it in to immigration and ger our final immigration approval. We have been working on redoing paperwork that needed address correction and had to be reredone due to getting to close to expire we are hoping and praying we are able to travel during november or december timeframe.. only one thing stands in the way... Money, I am sure the Lord will provide when we truely need it. I gotta have faith that Elijah(Spencer) will be home soon!

Faith moves mountains..

We have been on the road to this adoption much longer than I wish, Elijah had another birthday, by himself in his country. Lord willing he will not have another birthday or Christmas without the LOVE of his earthly family. Our heavenly father is with him and will be until we can be that is the only thing that has kept me from totally loosing my mind. I have to remember in Gods time not mine. A beautiful boy, who prayfully will be part of our family, waits and wonders what is out there for him. God knows, we are coming Elijah... God be with you until we can hold you in our arms.

ive been really bad..

So I signed into my blog today and realized I havent posted in two months, I didnt think it had been so long. It has been a crazy couple of months but quiet on the adoption front.
Lauren turned 18 on May 25th. Graduated on June 4, married on June 5. found out she was pregnant mid June.
If that wasnt enough we moved the 3rd week of June the same week Alina went to camp and the week before Shanna went to spend the summer with my girlfriend Jodi.
So we are now settled into our new home and are beginning to focus on redoing adopion paperwork that needs to be changed b/c of the move.
I am trying to stay positive and hope that we may be able to be in elijahs country in the early fall.
This is so frustrating things keep happening to prevent or slow this adoption down but I dont think God would open doors just to close them I think someone who doesnt want to see my precious boy in a family of people who love him.
so I ask for your prayers for our family but mostly for Elijah.

Congrats to the COX family... they are in country and have met Mia..

The Cox family, Kecia and Kris, are traveling to bring adopt their daughter, Kareen/Mia. She is 4 years old and is the same orphanage as Elijah. It is nice to see that the kids are taken care of. Mia has a beautiful smile. I hope they dont mind I am sharing one picture of their beautiful daughter.
Mia will be there 4th daughter, she has 2 older sisters, Krya and Adrie and a sister who is almost her twin, Bree.