Confused about Gods WILL

Have you ever felt so drawn to do something that when things dont work out you get more frustated and question our LORD. And then you get and AHA moment and realize that maybe you were not hearing what HE was REALLY trying to tell you just what you wanted to hear...
Well I am at that point for the last 10 months I knew or at least I thought I knew what we(my family and I) were supposed to do, who my GOD was leading me to. That he would come home and we would begin life with "Shawn" as our son, brother. Now I sit and wonder if as I look at another's photos with such and intense feeling and wonder...
There is a boy who has CEREBRAL PALSY same as my daughter Alina, he has my daughters begging my husband to say yes to him.. And there is a little boy with Down syndrome that I keep looking at and wondering why am I so drawn to him, what about Shawn, what do I do? My mothering instincts say bring them all home, But the voice of reason MY HUSBAND DAN, will only agree to one..
And then I am reminded by a song by christian artist Twila Paris..

This is no time to fear
This is a time of faith and determination
Don't lose the vision here, carried away by the motion
Hold on to all that you hide in your heart
There is one thing that has always been true
It holds the world together

God is in control
We believe that His children will not be forsaken
God is in control
We will choose to remember and never be shaken
There is no power above or beside HIM, we know
OH, God is in control, Oh God is in control

No matter how the deception may fly
There is one thing that has always been true
And it will be true foreverGod is in control
We believe that His children will not be forsaken
God is in control
We will choose to remember and never be shaken
There is no power above or beside HIM, we know
OH, God is in control, Oh God is in control

Oh He has never let you down
Why start to worry now? Why start to worry now?
He is still the Lord of all we see
He is still the loving Father wathching over you and me
Watching over you, watching over me
Watching over everything
Watching over you, watching over me
Every little sparrow, every little key, every little key

God is in control
We believe that His children will not be forsaken
God is in control
We will choose to remember and never be shaken
There is no power above or beside HIM, we know
OH, God is in control, Oh God is in control



This is the song that has to keep me moving forward and when my LORD shows me that it is the time to commit to which boy is to be my son, then I will be until then I must remember.. GOD is in CONTROL